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Hiya my beautiful online reader friend. Thank you truly for following alongside me on this journey. I value your support. Regardless of what you choose to do with the information you have come to read. I am going to affirm you are someone who has been journeying with me for a few blog entries.

With that in mind, I suspect you are somewhat aware of my past in regards to my upbringing and personal relationships. Going forward, I am no longer going to write about people from my past specifically. I am confident I have shown enough detailed account of my experience to substantiate my confidence in what I am speaking on. I know a little. That little is enough to help at least one person. I trust I have at least one seed for you to consider planting to grow for yourself, and based upon what you have come to learn about me thus far.

The reason I chose to refrain from divulging any other information regarding my perception of people is simply this, I love them, truly. I choose to honor the teachings from each and every one of them. Without them, I would not have known the difference.

I can also recognize the fact that the more I speak on my truth as it relates to them, the more at risk they become to outward projections. My goal is to help heal people, not help hurt people. That includes anyone who may have perhaps intentionally, or more likely unintentionally hurt me.

With that in mind, I trust I have established enough credibility in my honest approach with you when I proclaim, I know me enough to offer a seed for you to consider growing for yourself. The more I know me, the more equipped I am at understanding you.

Approach my journey like a detective. Uncover hidden clues that may help you connect some dots in your life. I do not know you better than you know yourself. You know your journey. I am simply equipped with a glimpse. You must trust yourself when it comes to your ability to identify patterns. You must trust yourself even when you are void of physical proof before you. You must trust the voice inside who questions your morality in any given moment. You must trust you can discern shyte wrapped inside a candy wrapper, versus the sweet rewards of genuine and true success.

Trust you know what you are doing. Regardless of who perceives the old versions of you. You cannot control anyone’s perception. Including parents, friends, lovers, potential business partners, nor potential clients. You can only control the way you choose to influence them, and by doing so, yourself.

Trust the law of gestation. You are not waiting for anything. You are learning. You are not lost. You are exploring. Your emotions were trained to be suppressed by way of outside stimuli, to help cripple your ability to control your sound waves from manifesting peaceful abundance. The more detached and ignorant you become with your emotions, the less control you have over the outcome of your reality. Sneaky little suppression trick by those who know otherwise. Anyway, trust yourself before you trust anything or anyone else, including me. To do that, you must truly know both your dark side and your light side. This requires a balanced mind. This requires a desire to know thyself.

Sometimes, your ability to sustain a balanced mind can be tricky. It’s often easier said than done. With that said, the challenge creates a master alchemist. Kind of a win in the end if you ask me.

As an example, over recent days, I vlogged about the challenges with depression. Both on TikTok and Facebook. I also wrote about depressed energy in yesterday’s blog post, to a degree. I decided to create the TikTok vlog because I was triggered at that time. The video I created offered me an opportunity to alchemize my energy, whilst offering insight which aligns with my passion.

My passion in this lifetime is to spread unconditional love and kindness to the best of my ability. Whilst creating a stable living for myself. Easy peasy, lemon squeezy; when you take fifty-two years to do it. The law of gestation can be a real bugger sometimes.

I was triggered by a song. The song is called “Daddy”, written and performed by Coldplay. Coldplay has come across my TikTok enough times now, that I decided to see the hidden message within the message of their songs. My universe is always guiding me. This I trust. With that, I wanted to explore the creative minds of a pretty awesome band, if you ask me, called, Coldplay.

With that, I went on YouTube and searched for their videos. Their official channel came up so I followed them. Then I watched their videos. Two songs of Coldplay’s hit me bloody hard. One, I am going to keep to myself for now. The other song is “Daddy”. That video still brings sad tears to my eyes when I watch it. I plan to keep watching it over and over again, until I can watch it with warm love, instead of sadness. Doing that lets me know I have achieved loving acceptance. With that said, when I saw that video for the first time the other day, all my experiences with my father came rushing to the surface.

Shit, I am crying now as I write this.

I miss my dad. Not the man he became. I miss the dad I thought I knew when I was a wee little girl. I feel abandoned by my dad. He didn’t physically leave me. My dad left me to myself whilst he watched silently. I love my dad. I hurt my dad. He doesn’t see the truth in the series of events which occurred back in the day, and to which I wrote about. My dad doesn’t like me. The resentment both my parents harbor towards me helps them avoid their own childhood wounds. I can understand that. Still bloody hurts nonetheless.

My dad will never walk down the aisle with me. I won’t hear my dad say I am proud of you and I love you. Words which were a rarity back in the day. I have to accept this. I am still mourning this truth. When I watch Coldplay’s video, I am placed inside the boat with the little girl inside my mind. I felt like I was that little girl. I didn’t realize how much pain I am still holding when it comes to my parents. I am so sad.

With that said, I need this to be released so that I can continue to do my best to alchemize the energy. My intent in writing this blog is to alchemize the energy. By writing my thoughts here for you to read, I am moving into acceptance of the truth. This is ugly healing that becomes beautiful growth.

Thank you Coldplay. Once again you have helped me heal! You guys rock! or Indie?! Or whatever your genre of music is? Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You have a friend in me.

Back to you. You are going to have triggers. Your spirit team will guide you towards triggers to help you release them. When you pray for patience, God will help you create an experience whereby you must practice patience. It’s the only way the universe can show you what’s in your own back pocket sort of speech.

When you desire true love, such as myself, the universe will help you create a journey of triggers to help alert you to programming which is counterintuitive for your request. If you are meeting taker energy and desire reciprocity, you best uncover the true reasons for attracting takers. Triggers push you to do this. The answers are inside you. All you gotta do is ask yourself the right questions. Then be present to observe the answer. Including listening to the inspired thoughts which ring out inside your head. Psychics are only psychics because they trust their thoughts. Simple and complex all at the same time.

Being an alchemist of your own energy can also be a challenge when you are presumably doing it alone. We are a collective consciousness so we gravitate towards another hand, shoulder, or ear. When we feel alone, it’s scary, and sometimes emotionally draining. No one wants to be alone. With that said, that’s the illusion. We are never truly alone. You are connected to an oversoul. Your oversoul has many versions spread out across space and time. Inside this “data center”, if you will, is your personal library. The Akashic Records is often what the spiritual community refers to this knowledge as being. Everything about you is stored within your Akashic record. Your higher consciousness. Your oversoul.

Your oversoul is far more expansive than your fractal self, even once you are fully back in spirit form. You still have an ego there too. You have a personality even in spirit. You are still you even without a body. The only difference is, you become fully aligned with your oversoul which allows you to remember everything. You also have no attachment to triggers. Therefore emotions, although recognized, are no longer required. All are accepting of all. Everyone communicates telepathically because everyone is connected to the same source data. I can read your mind. You can read mine. Sort of deal.

With that, you are not delusional if you decide to trust the inner voice that is nudging you and giving you hints about yourself along the way. That voice, my Clairity as an example, whispers to you. Sudden ideas come from this voice. Morality checks come from this voice. Inspired thought which prompts a question comes from this voice. The one that says I told you so and you were an idiot for doing that, comes from your ego. Your ego represents all the stages of your growth. There is a difference.

Trust your ability to hear your wiser self. Remain present after posing your question. Your divine unseen team and God consciousness as a whole, will help to influence your energy to move you towards higher learning, so that you can achieve what you had set out to achieve. They work through signs, symbols, and pattern identification. Patterns can be linked through familiar points of reference and by way of divine synchronicities.

With that, treat your inner voice like a friend. Give that wiser voice a name. Greet that inner voice with the name you honor, each and every time you sense a shift in your perception and or energy vibration. Doing so helps you to build a relationship with the divine.

Yes, you may still be working to attract your perfect person for you. Yes, you may be in the gestation period for attracting true friendships. With that said, you would also be building a solid relationship with your true best friend inside. This can help turn a challenging journey into a magical one. You become less alone. If you want to add my whimsy to your magical step, greet a tree and give the tree a name. Every time you see the tree, think “Hiya Norm. It’s good to see ya”. Doing this creates your magic. It also softens your heart to God consciousness which is being reflected in nature. Everything is alive in some way. God is.

Be as magical in your mind as you can possibly be, whilst also remembering to keep one foot planted firmly on the ground at all times. Balance. Too much of anything can be dangerous.

Trust yourself. If you think differently than the people around you, that’s freaking awesome! Choose to stand out to live a life for yourself.