My intuition tells me that I am walking this path so that I can illuminate a potential path for someone else who is in the dark in some way. I recognize that I chose to use my own life as an example for others. To what degree? I am uncertain. With that said, I know that the way I experience my mind and perception of my reality whilst recovering from heavy trauma is of value for others. When I say others, I mean people who are about ready to exit this world because they have been beaten down enough, and yet, still hold a spark of faith and determination to heal and move forward in a new way of thinking. People who are ready to explore themselves in an honest and loving way whilst equally stern and accepting of accountability and responsibility for the life they had created for themselves. People who are open minded enough to explore alternative methods to determine their incredible and powerful spark inside. People who are ready to create peace rather than war inside their mind.
Some days it seems like this audience is few and far between. I have been giving insight, albeit in a unique and unconventional way, on social media platforms and through writing my journal here on Jetpack. I notice on a daily basis that my overall stats are low. With that said, I am not interested in attracting a following of people. If I could impact the world in a massive and loving way whilst remaining anonymous, perfect!
I am interested in impacting people in a positive way to the point where I help create leaders not followers. With that said, my ego voice and my spirit voice are at odds when it comes to expecting disappointment. I am doing my best to overcome my conditioning to expect disappointment by reinforcing what I have accomplished. “If my body died tomorrow would I be at peace with myself?” Yes.
So far the answer is still yes. I plan on keeping that answer firm in my mind. As long as my morals remain solid, my answer remains solid. If my answer remains solid then I am successful, not a disappointment.
I also do my best to avoid my growing addiction to look at the analytics behind the scenes of my videos and blog entries. With that said, some days are easier said than done. Thank goodness for the law of gestation. It offers a gradual understanding rather than a demand for understanding. Perfect because with me, patience has most certainly been required.
Some days I feel like I am at a loss as to what to do. Then I heard Clairity whisper.
“It is important to accept constructive criticism with grace. Rather than blame outside sources such as algorithms and low interest, consider revisiting some suggestions we have placed before you through other people’s knowledge”.
Accept constructive criticism. Interesting I thought.
“Do you know that what you have to share is of value Clair?, or, do you simply believe in the possibility?”
Good question!
I know what I have come to learn about myself through my connection with the divine has been incredibly powerful and life altering. I know if anyone from my past were to bump into me or reach out, they would receive a totally new version of me. They wouldn’t likely know what to think or say when it comes to my approach and boundaries. With that, yes, I know the knowledge I have to share is of value.
“What is it you believe when it comes to your knowledge and the way you share it with others?”
Ouch. I think I know where this line of questioning is taking me. I believe most people prefer the easy route. The quick fix, gotta a hack for you, do it my way and you succeed in thirty days, approach. The five easy steps process. Knowing yourself intimately takes a shyte ton of dedication and shadow work. First off, a person has to truly care about their well-being enough to commit to experiencing emotional pain. Not too many people jump for joy at that idea. They jump for joy at a potential material gain. Emotional clarity and gained insight, not so much.
Secondly, I wonder if my consultative approach might be biting me in the arse. I know I can sell ice to an eskimo. I have plenty of sales training. With that said, I am not interested in selling an idea to someone who simply impulse shops. I am also not interested in stepping into the hustle grind of convincing people to buy from me. I believe in an organic approach. People who stop, read, and listen to what I have to offer are more likely genuinely interested in absorbing the information. These individuals are more likely to do the inner work for themselves. It’s my way of sifting out quality over quantity. I lean towards quality. Leaders are born this way.
“Clair I asked you that question so that you could determine your niche market. When you know your audience, regardless of size, speak to them. Do your best to elevate your belief about your audience and move into knowing you are attracting great leaders in their own right. The greater quality and attention you place on your people, the more others have to witness. The more others witness the more inspired change spreads.
In addition, you must accept constructive criticism. Rather than jump at blaming others or your ignorance, consider acknowledging your fear and frustration. Then revisit what you know and what you believe. What you know is firm. What you believe is malable. Dig a little deeper into your belief. In your instance you believe that your niche market is so small that you may not be able to fully break onto the scene as an honorable leader. You fear being unable to make a stable living for yourself because of this. In addition, you have been projecting your frustration onto TikTok. TikTok is a business dear. They owe you nothing. They make money off of you if you produce high interest. It is in their best interest to help you, not deter you.
You are unfamiliar with technology. Therefore ignorant to the communication data required to link your work and streamline it effectively to match what you are offering. Your outside of the box approach and your refusal to follow trends makes it more challenging for the algorithm to place your content. There is no fault. Merely understanding so that you can relax and reaffirm your faith in the laws of the universe and your divine team.
You have been praying to God asking for proof that having faith in yourself and the unseen was wise. You have been pleading with God to present you with equal reciprocity for your efforts. We hear you. We sent you videos created by IT specialists to inform you of ISOs, hashtags, and the like. Not to overwhelm you with a topic which you truly dislike. Rather it was to ease your mind to keep doing what you are doing. It was also to help you identify your platform. TikTok is fabulous for creating awareness and temporary followers. It is not meant for you to give all your knowledge away. TikTok is not your career dear.
Instead of feeling overwhelmed which allows your ego to reinforce disappointment, revisit what you have not been disappointed in, such as your level of shadow work and strength in divine connection. You are not a follower dear. You are a trailblazer. This takes incredible faith which does not come easy. You know your ego can become addicted to a feeling. In this case the feelings your ego is addicted to is disappointment and rejection. Knowing this, be your own parent. Rather than focus on what is outside of your control, focus on developing your skills and knowledge further. Then revisit your newly acquired knowledge which increases your confidence and faith in the unknown.
No you do not have to become your own IT guru. What you must do is reaffirm your faith in us to help you attract the best resources which compliment and support your efforts. Rather than focus on the obstacle, identify it, determine what is within your scope of knowledge, then determine what is within your control. Take action based upon what you know. Have faith that what you don’t know you come to learn. Then trust you make the right decisions. Keep desperation out of the equation. If you know you offer value then know with certainty that those individuals of value notice you regardless of platform.
Embrace yourself dear. You are about to be pivoted”.
My faith in making a stable and fulfilling career for myself may be a bit shaken. I am still on solid ground. The best thing I can do right now is relax and trust that I have done enough to prove what I have to offer is of value. I also choose to trust the universe when it comes to proving my faith was warranted and effective. I affirm that my physical world reflects my inner world. I choose this mindset until the universe proves differently.
LivWithClairity 
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