How the hell do I trust someone with my heart and mind after being lied to, manipulated, and taken advantage of by someone who once said they loved me? How do I trust someone to genuinely love me when my own parents only loved me because they had to (according to my mother and the lack of interest from my father). These were questions which plagued me consciously and subconsciously for the majority of my life. One day when I was out on my walk and talk with God, Clairity chimed in to offer me some insight.
“Choosing to incarnate on the earthly plane is a trustfall. You agree to have an earthly experience recognizing that physical emotions trigger your ego into action which oftentimes creates an instant narrow minded approach. Each time this occurs, your ego dominates your spirit. Your ego then takes the reigns of your decision making. Your decisions then trigger future fated events.
If you come to believe no one is trustworthy or that you would be disappointed, then you shall meet an untrustworthy person so that you can experience disappointment in order to prove yourself correct. Your ego’s security blanket is being correct. Even when the results are painful.
The moment your ego is spoken to, you react based upon previous experiences or the lack thereof. More often than not a person is reacting to a current situation based upon past events. This is because your ego requires a point of reference to learn from. To acquire a point of reference you would have to have lived an experience in which to draw upon.
If you haven’t experienced something that you long for, you risk creating a vibration of jealousy, envy, and or lack in some way every time you expose yourself to other people’s lifestyles who share your ideal dream life. When this occurs, your emotions drop you down in frequency. Causing you to step into a cyclical pattern of feeding your willpower, then desperation, then defeat over and over again. In other words, proverbial doors close in your face or you attract someone who has a mindset to help you continue to struggle in some way. When this occurs, the lines of trust become obscured.
The promise of a better life trumps trust in the truth. A person’s indiscretions are overlooked. Overtime the truth which was shown in the beginning illuminates once again. Once you see the truth you spiral into self criticizing judgment because you trusted someone you believe you shouldn’t have and you beat yourself up for not trusting yourself. No one is learning trust in this scenario. The only thing being learned is not to trust. This is saddening because in order to have faith in God, you must trust God. How can you trust in creation when you continue to struggle with trusting yourself? This is understandable of course. When your life provided you with repeat circumstances which chipped away at your ability to trust, then you would have a difficult time trusting anyone, including yourself.
For example, if your point of reference is pain, betrayal, violence, manipulation etcetera, your mind would develop a tainted view of humanity. Once this occurs a frequency of desperation hoping for an outside source to come to your aid begins to take shape, or, you isolate yourself to the point of excluding fun and excitement from your life. You become less of a social being which is unhealthy for a creation made to be social by nature.
In addition, one of three paths often unfold for someone who is challenged with trust in one’s own self or challenged with trusting the universe when a person becomes desperate for change. Those paths are either complete withdrawal from society, every person for themselves mindset which blurs the line of integrity, and complete immersion into being a socialist at the cost of living for other people. None of them build trust in humanity and none of those paths builds trust in the divine, or so it seems.
As I had previously mentioned, incarnating on earth was a trust fall. Your life is designed to teach you how to trust yourself and your unseen spirit team. Through every experience you developed internal signals, dialogue, and patterned observations. Throughout your life and unbeknownst to you, you let your ego deny your internal intuitive signals. You fell into a state of desperation. You were desperate to experience true love. This desperation then influenced your decision to ignore your universal language by way of making excuses for people’s behavior. Rather than trust your internal knowing, you chose a desperate time call for desperate measures approach. Your desperate measures was to convince yourself that someone deceitful could see and value the truth in you. You can trust yourself. Sadly, and painfully, you chose not to.
Do you choose to trust yourself today?” Clairity asked.
Yes I do. I trust my own intuition before I trust anything or anyone else.
Clairity then went on to ask “Excellent. Explain to me what you have come to trust about yourself going forward? What do you know without people telling you?”
I know when I feel a shiver up my spine I am in a dangerous situation. If I am in company then someone near me is dangerous. They are willing to hurt me physically.
I know when I get a knot in my stomach the person I am close to or interacting with cannot be trusted with their words.
I know when I become instantly irritated I am in the company of someone who relishes in a victim mindset and has a difficult time with taking accountability.
I know when my body naturally positions farther away from someone then I am in the presence of a person who enjoys manipulative mind games.
I know when I get an excited feeling in my stomach I am around a happy-go-lucky person who tends to see the world with a glass half full approach. I also know that excited feeling is the cue for me to speak any intuitive insight to someone I am picking up on. The internal sensation is a green flag telling me the person would be receptive and the information would be of some benefit to them.
I have learned to acknowledge when someone is being nice and then observe if they are truly kind. If they bulldoze their way through a crowd because they felt entitled to do so for example, is a person who knows how to be nice. Kindness flew the coupe long ago.
The list could go on with what I have come to realize about myself. Each time I enter a new space or come across someone I have not met before, my first instinct is to check in with my own energy. I gauge what I am experiencing energetically and then place a person at a healthy level of trust. Most people remain at a respectable distance. With that said, there is a unique warm comforting feeling I receive when I come across a genuinely authentic and kind person. That feeling is the green flag to let someone into my inner most vulnerable circle. This particular feeling is rare for me so I am not entirely certain how my ego would initially respond if I were being perfectly honest. With that said, I know there are people for me out there.
“Yes Clair, there are. Are you a genuine, authentic, and kind person?”
I like to think so, yes
“Are you arrogant to believe you are the only one in your world who is?”
No. We are a collective. Many people think alike. That’s the way we attract people. We attract each other based upon our energetic signal. My signal is influenced by my self confidence and overall mindset. Since we all do that, and we are all made of the same source, it’s inevitable for me to meet people like me. I was made to be social after all. I choose to trust the divine when it comes to this. I also choose to continue to trust myself regardless of what external information I have.
“To end this conversation for now, I would like to reiterate the fact that your life is a trustfall. You go through trials and tribulations so that you can also experience triumph. Both are required to learn polarities. Polarities are required for you to learn about yourself and to discern who you are amongst the grand design. Continue to ask yourself meaningful questions to uncover the hidden patterns just like you did with the shiver up your spine. You identified that sensation each time you met someone who physically hurt you. Now that you know the signal you can trust it. Therefore you came to trust yourself in this regard. You can now avoid these types of predators.
Patterns emerge in all areas and with all types of characters. As long as you ask yourself questions that you are truly ready to know the answer to, you will be wiser and better equipped to discern trustworthy people versus malicious intent. Remember to act upon your intuition before you act upon potential facts. And also remember, you cannot experience triumph without having a challenge. People who claim to be unable to trust anyone is a person who is deeply struggling with trusting their own decision making. To trust your decisions you must trust your internal signals. Your internal signals developed over a circular pattern in your life. Identify the signal and the pattern to add the information to your wisdom library in your mind. Your life was built for you to learn how to trust”.
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