How the hell does one trust someone with their heart and mind after being lied to, manipulated, and taken advantage of by someone who once said they loved them? How does one trust someone to genuinely love them when their own parents loved them because they had to, out of obligation and legal contracts?
These were questions which plagued me consciously and subconsciously for a majority of my life. One day when I was out on my walk and talk with God, Clairity chimed in to offer me some insight.
“Choosing to incarnate on the physical earth plane is a trust fall. You agreed to have a physical experience in this lifetime. Many lifetimes in fact. You have experienced physical reality for an extremely long time. Recognizing that physical reality emotions trigger your ego into action, which quite often creates instant narrow minded approaches in your life. You downward spiral into pain and mental despair. You inadvertently visit your chosen hell each time you do this.
When you incarnate into physical form, your ego tends to dominate your spirit. Your ego then takes the reigns of your decision making. Your decisions then trigger future fated events. Your ego is the driver in the physical realm. Your spirit is your front seat passenger. You ultimately decide your own fate by way of free will choice and energetic connections.
If you come to believe no one is trustworthy or that you would be disappointed, then you shall meet an untrustworthy person so that you can experience disappointment in order to prove yourself correct. Your ego’s security blanket is being correct. Even when results are painful for you.
The moment your ego is spoken to, you react based upon previous experiences or the lack thereof. More often than not, a person reacts to a current situation based upon past events. This is because your ego requires a point of reference to learn from. To acquire a point of reference, you would have to have lived an experience in which to draw from.
If you haven’t experienced something that you long for, you risk creating a vibration of jealousy, envy, and or lack in some way, every time you expose yourself to people who have lifestyles that you have only dreamed about. When you ruminate like this, your emotions drop you down in frequency. Causing you to step into a patterned response to utilize your willpower. Then desperation kicks in. Then defeat over and over again becomes your daily norm and your daily routine.
In other words, proverbial doors close in your face. You ultimately attract someone who has a mindset to help you continue to struggle in some way. When this occurs, lines of trust become obscured. You then reinforce no one is to be trusted. You then begin the journey all over again from start to finish, believing and attracting untrustworthy characters.
A game can go on for an infinite amount of turns around the board. This can also be for your life, if you insist?
The promise of a better life trumps trust in the truth. A person’s indiscretions are overlooked. Overtime, truth which was shown in the beginning of your chosen journey, illuminated once again. A painful jolt woke you up for a moment. Once you see the truth, you spiralled into self criticism and judgment, because you trusted someone you believed you shouldn’t have, and you beat yourself up for not trusting yourself.
No one learns to trust in this scenario. The only thing being learned is not to trust. This is saddening because in order to have faith in God, you must trust God. How can you trust in creation when you continue to struggle with trust in yourself? It is understandable of course. When your life provided you with repeat circumstances which chipped away at your ability to trust, then you would have a difficult time trusting anyone, including yourself.
For example, if your point of reference is pain, betrayal, violence, manipulation, and etcetera, your mind would develop a tainted view of humanity. Once this occurs, a desperate level of frequency is emitted. Hope for an outside source to come to your aid begins to take shape, or, you isolate yourself to the point of excluding fun and excitement from your life. You become less of a social being which is unhealthy for a creation made to be social by nature.
In addition, one of three paths often unfolds for someone who is challenged with trust in one’s own self, or who is deeply challenged with trust in the universe. When a person becomes desperate for change, trust is replaced with “a hope and a prayer”.
Desperation breeds paths into complete withdrawal from society. “Every person for themselves”, mindset which blurs the line of integrity, and complete immersion into being a socialist at the cost of living for other people, are often the end result of an untrustworthy mind. Neither path leads them to build trust in humanity. Neither of those paths would build trust in the divine. To build trust in yourself, you must navigate untrustworthy waters to learn how to spot untrustworthy people.
As I had previously mentioned, incarnating on physical earth was a trust fall. Your life is designed to teach you how to trust yourself and your unseen spirit team. Through every experience you have had, you have developed your internal signals, your internal dialogue, and your pattern observations.
Throughout your life Clair, and unbeknownst to you, you let your ego deny your internal intuitive signals. You fell into a state of desperation. You were desperate to experience true love. This desperation then influenced your decision to ignore your own universal language, by way of making excuses for people’s behavior.
Rather than trust your internal knowing, you chose to be in a desperate state, which created a mindset which stated your approach; “desperate times calls for desperate measures”.
Many people fall into this hell. You included, Clair. Your cave is always presented to you. You choose to enter your personal cave when you choose to be desperate in your approach to your life.
Your “desperate measures” approach, was to convince yourself that someone else, namely Rosie, and who was deceitful, could see and value the truth in you. You can trust yourself. Sadly, and painfully, you chose not to. You had chosen to make excuses for untrustworthy actions instead.
Do you choose to trust yourself today?” Clairity asked.
Yes I do. I trust my intuition before I trust anything or anyone else. I choose to trust you Clairity.
Clairity then went on to ask “Excellent. Explain to me what you have come to trust about yourself going forward? What do you know without people telling you?”
I know when I feel a shiver up my spine I am in a dangerous situation. If I am in company, then someone near me is dangerous. They are willing to hurt me physically.
I know when I get a knot in my stomach the person I am close to or interacting with cannot be trusted with their words.
I know when I am instantly irritated, I am in the company of someone who relishes in a victim mindset, and who has difficulty with responsibility and personal accountability.
I know when my body naturally positions farther away from someone, I am in the presence of a person who enjoys manipulative mind games.
I know when I get an excited feeling in my stomach, I am around a happy-go-lucky person, who tends to see the world with a glass half full approach. I also know that excited feeling is a cue for me to speak any intuitive insight to someone I am picking up on. The internal sensation is a green flag. Telling me a person would be receptive and the information would be of some benefit to them in some way.
I have learned to acknowledge when someone is being nice and then observe if they are truly kind. If they bulldoze their way through a crowd because they felt entitled to do so for example, is a person who knows how to be nice. Kindness flew the coupe long ago.
The list could go on with what I have come to realize about myself. Each time I enter a new space or come across someone I have not met before, my first instinct is to check in with my own energy. I gauge what I am experiencing energetically and then place a person at a healthy level of trust. Most people remain at a respectable distance. With that said, there is a unique warm, comforting feeling I receive when I come across a genuine authentic, and kind person. That feeling is a green flag to let someone into my inner most vulnerable circle. This particular feeling is rare for me, so I am not entirely certain how my ego would initially respond as of late. With that said, I know there are people for me out there.
“Yes Clair, there are. Are you a genuine, authentic, and kind person?”
I like to think so, yes.
“Are you arrogant to believe you are the only one in your world who is?”
No. We are a collective. Many people think alike. That’s the way we attract people. We attract each other based upon our energetic signal. My signal is influenced by my self confidence and overall mindset. Since we all do that, and we are all made of the same source, it’s inevitable for me to meet people like me. I was made to be social after all. I choose to trust the divine when it comes to this. I also choose to continue to trust myself. Regardless of what external information I have.
“To end this conversation for now, I would like to reiterate the fact that your life is a trust fall. You go through trials and tribulations so that you can also experience triumphs. Both are required for you to learn polarities. Polarities are required for you to learn about yourself, and for you to discern who you are amongst the grand design.
Continue to ask yourself deep meaningful questions. Uncover the hidden patterns just like you did with the shiver up your spine. You identified that sensation each time you met someone who physically hurt you. Now that you know the signal, you can trust it going forward. Therefore you came to trust yourself in this regard. You can now avoid these types of predators. Connect dots as often as you can. The more you identify patterns, the more trust you build in yourself.
Patterns emerge in all areas of your life, and with all types of characters. As long as you ask yourself questions that you are truly ready to know the answer to, you will be wiser and better equipped to discern trustworthy people versus malicious intent. Remember to act upon your intuition before you act upon potential facts.
Also remember, you cannot experience triumphs without having challenges. People who claim to be unable to trust anyone, is a person who is deeply struggling with trust in their own decision making. To trust your decisions, you must trust your internal signals. Your internal signals were developed over a pattern in your life. Identify the signal and the pattern to add the information to your wisdom library in your mind. Your life was built for you to learn how to trust. Trust yourself. Trust your creation”.
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