LivWithClairity: Magic Always Comes With A Price

Magic always comes with a price. The first time I heard that was when I watched an episode of “Once Upon A Time” on Disney+. That series was rather enjoyable. I watched the series twice. Once with my daughter and once with Rosie. My favorite characters were Rumplestilskin and Regina. I could relate to their characters in the sense of their progression to combat intrusive thoughts. Their character journeys were inspiring when looked at closely.

It was Rumplestilskin played by Robert Carlisle who said “Magic always comes with a price Deary”.

There is much truth to this statement and compliments the statement made by Oprah Winfrey in a previous blog post I wrote which is “most people don’t know what it is they want” which can be a heavy price to pay in the end.

I believe in magic. I believe in miracles. I also believe in being responsible when it relates to the commitment I would be making to any worthwhile endeavor should magic appear for me creating a miracle. With that in mind, I have come to learn that I must look at what I am about to do from a micro level, meaning how it would affect me, to a macro level, meaning the way it would affect others. Based on that information, am I willing to take the risk associated with the mental, emotional, physical, and energetic weight which comes with it? That is an incredibly important question to ask yourself before agreeing to anything which would cause you to invest your mind. Your mind is your gold. You would want to expand it not shrink it. I wish to expand my awareness into knowing what it’s like to make a positive difference on the global stage. I would like to become an accomplished writer and speaker on the topics of love and spirituality.

With that, I have been thinking a bit about my last couple of blogs. I rely on Clairity and my own resilience to figure out my mind. Whilst thinking, I thought about the words “magic always comes with a price”, which led me to consider my subconscious mind to determine if I am holding onto a fear which may be helping to maintain a blockage. Is there a price that I am afraid to pay which keeps my successful outcome at arms length? When I did consider that question Clairity popped in for a moment.

“You hold fear when it comes to the price for your success. Think of your parents dear. What are you afraid of?”

I am afraid of my parents. That sounds so horrible to say, write, or read. It’s true though. Many ego versions of myself fear the emotional and mental pain they can inadvertently afflict onto me when they become angry. My mother in particular. When I think of my parents the emotion I feel isn’t love. It’s sadness and fear. If I were to become a well known author or speaker, my parents might come to learn of it. My success would come from sharing my life journey and my perception of living with and being raised by them.

My father is battling Leukemia. He was diagnosed a few years ago. They sold their house from what I understand and moved into an assistant living community to help my father. Liv told me he uses oxygen regularly and has been overall stable in his health. According to Liv, my mum offers Reiki healing sessions for local residences in her community. That’s a good thing. She did enjoy offering that service when she was with me at Tranquil Spirit. As far as I know, they are doing well. I would like it to remain that way for them. With that, I fear they would lose their peace if they found out I spoke the truth and introduced the world to some of the skeletons in theirs and my closet.

I can hear my mother now saying “how dare you do this! How dare you spread lies. You only ever think of yourself. Your father is dying and all you can do is blast hurtful things about us to the world. You are an ungrateful, cold hearted, selfish bitch!”, or something to that effect. Just thinking that gives me a vision of my thirteen year old self rocking back and forth in a fetal position inside a cave with music in her ears to drown out her life. I can see my mum reacting that way. I can also see my dad with a piercing glare of disgust and rage. This particular fear makes my entire body shiver. I don’t want to hurt my parents in any way. All I am wanting to do is share my story so that I can make a stable living for myself whilst helping others determine their own self sabotaging patterns.

If my parents are still active on this earthly plane when I become known for my work, I will pay a heavy price. I know this. My parents will also pay a heavy mental and emotional price. The impact is great. I know this. Not to mention others who I have mentioned throughout my writing who too may have painful revelations after learning from my writings and teaching. I am using all of us who were in my life, especially myself, as an example of human conditioning affecting generations to the point of everyone pointing fingers.  Rather than look inwards, people tend to identify who hurt them and use that as a keepsake to maintain their own poor decisions and manifested experience. How does that break the generational pattern? My goal is to help people move past blame. No one wins when shame and blame are playing.

Clairity, am I stopping my own progress because I know if I succeed I will hurt my parents?

“Yes, and no. Your success is inevitable. Your fear helps to delay the inevitable. Remember, you chose this. Yes there will be opposition. Yes your parents will come to learn of your efforts, as will many others you once knew. You must decide in what way you will allow that to affect you. You cannot control the reactions and internalization of your parents. You can only manage your own. When you look at the big picture from a global impact you can see the beauty and blessings which come from your journey. Without your parents raising you the only way they knew how and based upon their own unhealthy programming, what would you have to write about? Hold gratitude for them even if they are unable to see that you are not intentionally hurting anyone”, Clairity explained .

“Am I alone when my parents find out?”

“First, you must determine if the price of hurting your parents and the effects that can have on your children must be considered thoroughly. I know you have thought of this many times. Are you committed?”

I responded to Clairity whilst letting out a big sigh of trepidation, “yes”.

My parents have never taken the time to truly know me. I don’t expect them to fully understand nor do I blame them for it. I accept whatever impact this creates.

“To answer your question about being alone. No Clair. You will not be alone. First off, you have been seeing the number 33. You know this number is associated with Michael. Michael is close to you in these times. In addition, you have been receiving synchronicities relating to your person. Your Mr. Christy. Trust what we are telling you. You are never alone. You are loved, as are your parents.

You are brave. It takes incredible courage to speak on the topics you speak of with love and compassion. Trust your heart. Trust your intentions. Trust you are protected. Trust the divine timing by remembering there are more actors involved in your success. They too have cosmic roles at play. Stay firm in who you are. The pricetag will not be presented until you have the support required to work through it”.

If I keep this line of thought does the blockage release?

“Naturally”

Do I have to confront my parents?

“You manifested it through your fears”, Clairity confirmed.

Shit. I knew that. Well okay. At least I have a better understanding so that I won’t be blindsided when it happens. I know my parents will be. Oh my heart aches. Magic certainly does come with a price.

Always make certain you see the price by looking at your decision from a micro level and a macro level before committing to the project. You would invest in yourself wisely if you do.