(Disclaimer: Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
Throughout your life you perceive a world through a personal lens composed of subliminal conditioning. You have experiences which trigger emotions within you. Your emotions are energy in motion. As your energy vibrates, you send a signal. From there, you either repel others who are composed of the same energy, yet vibing differently, or, you attract someone because you share a familiar energetic signal. Your energetic signal links together with a like minded energy frequency, and naturally repels anything not in alignment with it.
Even if on the surface it looks as though two people are opposites in beliefs, they are still vibing. What you see externally is only the outer layer. The world of matter provides surface level observations. There are energetic layers underneath which pull two people together. You are designed that way so that you can assert your free will.
The universe is designed to offer you any experience you wish to explore. The challenge with this is, most human beings desire what they believe they can’t have. When a person knows they have something at any time, be it love, money, sex, whatever, the energy of desire being emitted from them is a matter-of-fact, confident knowing. They know they can have it so they do.
Sometimes people feel, and maintain a state of boredom because they are void of any desire at all. They have or can have anything materialistic of their choosing. In all sense of material success, they can have it. They are not desperate when it comes to money.
Desire born from desperation tends to reject material wealth because the message desperation sends is a lack of it. Therefore, the universe translates the energy being emitted as wanting to maintain an experience of lack. Be it in love or finances, the results are the same.
In the instance of boredom, a person can get trapped in a perpetual cycle of needing to attain more, and more in their life. Quite often it comes from a sense of rejection in childhood. Achieving more means they would have a better chance at being seen and admired. They may have developed a perception that who they were growing up was unimportant. They may have heard messages such as, “children are meant to be seen and not heard. Out of sight, out of mind. You don’t know what you are talking about because you’re too young to know. No news is good news when it comes to your well-being”, and so on.
In addition, it is not uncommon for people who are comfortable in chaos to become bored in a peaceful state. Doing deep reflection can be daunting for them so they associate down time as boredom. An addiction to a dopamine rush can, and does often form to replace their quieted mind. From there, a conscious thought of “I’m bored. I gotta do something. I gotta have that”, begins the game of chase. Life becomes difficult because fighting boredom means you must always be on the go. Due to a lack of self satisfaction and self realization. Boredom and peace are the dark and light of the same coin. They are synonymous.
Not everything is as it seems. Even those who seem to have it all may crave something. Causing them to perpetuate a mindset of lack in some way. When it comes to material success, they may be able to quickly satisfy a craving. Creating a quick burst of desire then personal satisfaction. Kind of like the climax point whilst having sex. Only it’s purely energy I am referring to. It’s usually fast, impactful, and fleeting.
If a person gets bored easily, they are asking the universe to give them the experience of boredom so that they can feel the dopamine rush from attaining their next conquest. All the while, avoiding questions to better understand the reasons they find themselves in this perpetual state of desperation, depression, and or, boredom.
With that, anyone in a state of desperation is likely being tossed back and forth in their mind between extreme stresses, and extreme pleasures. They fight their mind by avoiding a sense of boredom. They subconsciously reject the idea of having to look at their painful memories causing their reality to be shaped the way it is. They place themselves in a never ending game of playground teeter totter. Moving up and down between highs and lows. They must break through the boredom by identifying it as being in a peaceful state of contemplative awareness.
With that in mind, it’s important to recognize, most, if not all people, have some form of insecurity. Desperation is found within these insecurities. Regardless of age, ethnicity, gender, title, or affluence. An insecure person tends to remain insecure because they are telling their universe that is who they wish to be.
Remember, we have collective mindsets. There is always someone available to help you reinforce your negative thoughts you have of yourself. There are also an abundance of people who help you to reinforce your full awesomeness too. Unfortunately, most people are ignorant to the energy they are emitting through their insecurities on a daily basis. Therefore, they maintain a frequency of lack in some areas of their life. Keeping what they truly desire for themselves at a distance because they surround themselves with triggers which hold them in place.
When it comes to attaining something or someone, confident minded individuals create, and execute a plan of action and know with little to no doubt, that they in fact achieve it. Rather than be open to desperation, they keep that door closed. Therefore, in this instance, desire would not be emitted through a frequency of desperation and lack. Weaker energy creates weaker results. The energy which trumps the uncertainty, or the unknown in this instance, is confidence in one’s self, and an unshakable faith in a successful outcome. That’s the character I am creating for myself.
Everyone desires something. Mine is having the experience of authentic, true love from a man. A billionaire may desire authentic love. A hard working individual may desire retirement due to exhaustion. Anyone would desire recognition. We are created to be social beings after all. Even the most successful may desire relief from feeling as though their best isn’t quite good enough. Everyone, including you, desires something.
If you secretly desire something because you hold uncertainty that having it is possible, your energy is sending out a desperate signal to the universe. Telling it to provide you with an experience which ignites a feeling of desire. Resulting in an even stronger sense of desperation. Desperation then feeds envy, jealousy, anger, frustration, disconnection, and a feeling of loss. The effects compound. Whilst a person is in this state of awareness, a cyclical pattern would control them. In other words, the chase is on to keep up with the Jones’s! Does that make sense?
You get exactly what you feel. More often than what you consciously think. If you feel desperation and call it desire, you receive experiences which allow you to keep feeling desperate. If you believe you are unlovable, you attract people who agree with you. Reason being, you are telling the universe you wish to experience the emotional pain associated with being unloved.
There are several people in this world who also believe they are unlovable. They can help you reinforce that you are not lovable as well if you want? Hurt people, hurt people. People who secretly believe they are unlovable are hurting. They are trapped in the experience. Therefore, the narcissist who doesn’t believe true love exists meets the empath who believes true love does. They both have to prove love is elusive either way.
Two individuals expressing themselves to the other in their own unique way whilst at opposite ends of the love spectrum. Resulting in two people using each other as projection screens to prove to themselves they are not lovable. The universe granted their secret wish to be reminded that they would never experience true love from another. Whilst internally, their little child ego inside is screaming “why am I such an asshole?, or, why does no one love me?
Quite a conundrum isn’t it? You gotta know your subconscious patterns, if you truly are ready to change your circumstances. This is where Clairity came in. I had enough of disappointing results in my life. I thought quite a bit about the question Clairity asked me. What are the similarities between my two ex husbands, Rosie, and my Dad’s character? I tell ya, breadcrumbs become an entire meal once you put all the morsels on your plate. I was ready to see them, and eat up all the information I could find. What a revelation it was when I connected all the dots with the help of Clairity.
Before I take you on this path of subliminal love messages, I would like to express something important to me as it relates to everyone I have loved, or, been in contact with throughout my life. I love and respect all of the characters who have played a role in my life. There is no right nor wrong, only experiences. There is no blame, only teachers and students. We are all here learning about ourselves to the best of our ability, and with what we know within ourselves based on ego conditioning. There is no fault in that.
Yes, there are consequences to our actions. How are you supposed to learn anything if there was no such thing as cause and effect? In addition to that, not everything is as it seems. Sometimes you must express unconditional love for someone by walking away. Acceptance through love can look cruel on the surface. A conditioned mind would feel victimized by a person walking away from them. To them, the action is ungrateful and cold hearted. The person walking away mind you, may be in a state of loving acceptance. They may know the other person wouldn’t be able to see them any other way than a villain. Therefore there would be no growth between them. What I am basically saying here is, I have embraced forgiveness for all, including myself. I also walked away from everyone, with the exception of my children. Is that cold hearted, or, am I expressing unconditional love? That’s for you to decide.
A layer fueling my desire for love is, intelligence. My father is extremely intelligent. I admired that about him. That quality also helped me to manifest experiences where I would be played as a fool. What a sneaky little destructive message I was giving myself. I bet if you keep following along on my journey, you will start to connect some dots in your life too.
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