I’ve lived a challenging life. I suspect you have as well in one way or another. Triumphs cannot be achieved without a challenge to overcome. The universe does not discriminate against anyone’s potential for greatness. Therefore no one is chosen or selected to suffer nor gain more than another. Earth is an equal playing field. You chose your circumstances, where you were born, and your cultural background, in order to inspire yourself and others through overcoming some form of adversity in said area, or through the influences of your culture and heritage. This journey was designed by you before you incarnated and based upon your previous knowledge from another physical life, to which you chose to explore further in this lifetime to balance out your feminine and masculine energies. You receive several lifetimes to explore the same experience from different perspectives and angles of design. You do this to sustain a balanced and peaceful minded existence. That’s the end goal anyway.
As an example; in one life you may cause physical harm to someone who was in a lower economic standing than you, which then inspired you to incarnate again in another lifetime as an impoverished person, to better understand an impoverished path, as well as to balance out your energy through karmic experiences.
The middle ground for a life of affluence over impoverished life is learned generosity given with wise discernment. Focus your mind on determining the middle ground for yourself.
You do not need to live in poverty. You do not need to be rich in affluence. You require balance. What is that for you? Walk that path. You will find others walking the same path. They are your people. You attract your authentic people when you establish your middle ground or equilibrium in life; as far as I can tell at least.
Easier said than done.
One of my biggest challenges was understanding creation, God, and my place in this world. I lived an incredibly isolated life overall. I found myself alone more often than with people. Throughout my fifty-two years on this planet. I never felt like I fit in. Including where I am currently located. I have outgrown this place. The shelf life of being here has almost expired. I can sense this. The feeling I get when my circumstances have reached a shelf life is emptiness or I lack luster in my daily activities. When I no longer care, the shelf life has expired, basically. I know the universe is about to force me out of my comfort zone when I feel that empty feeling inside.
I am ready for a significant change. With that said, with my circumstances being what they are, which is homeless. I am living inside my eldest daughter’s apartment. I help her with her babies whilst she is at work. I know I am of help here. With that said, I catch myself becoming impatient or doubting my faith in the divine presence in my life because my efforts often seem to go unnoticed? I know I do not know for certain. With that said, no one has helped me to see otherwise in this instance.
My current best friends are a tree I lovingly named TreeTree and a rock I named Rockstar. I use both of their support when my legs require rest whilst walking in the woods. I always say “hiya Tree Tree” and “hiya Rockstar” every time I see them. I always thank them for their company and support. Yep, nature is my friend, besides Clairity, who is truly my only friend at this time. I do enjoy Clairity, my daughter Liv, and am eternally grateful for all that they both offer me.
I was sitting on my ‘Tree Tree’ the other day. I talked to God about my manifesting and co-creating with the universe. I wanted a better understanding of the way it works. As I sat there smoking a little weed, Clairity popped into my awareness to offer me some further insight into the way God, Source, Creator, the Most High, whatever name you wish to give your creation, works with you to build the life you desire for yourself.
“Creation is a master full design and is orchestrated through self. Creation, or God as you lovingly refer to it as, is consciousness vibrating at varying frequencies, degrees, and directions. Throughout all of creation, including dark energy/matter. God is an animal kingdom, nature in all its forms, humanoids, aliens, demons, and other ill intended creations. God is the designed matrix, all physical matter, which is energy transformed by other fragmented, highly creative expressions, (people or alien), of the same energy. God is your heaven or your hell. Expansive and highly creative consciousness is God manipulating energy into physical form. You are a part of creation’s creativity. You are consciousness. You are God in human flesh, as it were.
Clair, you see me as a guiding force. You consider me wise, yes?”
I thought about Clairity’s question for a moment. I hadn’t really put a label on who or what Clairity is.
“I trust what you are telling me. I can recognize different energies when you address me. Your energy is usually motherly with a firm no nonsense approach. More often than not you are soft, gentle, and extremely patient with me. There are also times when your energy shifts. The nurturing side is void. What I sense is a highly intellectual awareness void of emotions. With that, I suspect you, Clairity, are a collective consciousness, working cohesively together to assist me on this crazy, exhilarating physical journey”.
“Correct Clair. We are a collective consciousness with different influences and roles within the grand design. You are amongst us. Your higher awareness, the aspect of you which remembers before you incarnated, also helps to guide you forward. When you came into your earthly vessel a part of your mind was turned off in a sense. Leaving you to forget how easy it is to manifest and deliver your own heaven on earth.
You were made to feel and experience separatism. This illusion aids in your ability to identify yourself as a unique expression of all that is. This uniqueness, which you identify, then becomes the lens in which the highest power can explore self through you. The higher you vibrate at, the less physical matter required. It is for this reason you do not require a physical vessel to exist. You only require your mind which you create with.
Physical matter requires external communication. The ethereal realm requires consciousness for telepathy. With that in mind, you are telepathically communicating with us. Therefore you will sense a shift in energy when one divine being is addressing you over another. Focused thought creates the result.
Because creation is all that is, God knows you, your energy, and your subconscious mind which influences your energy. Remember, you are a fractal of creation, having a physical journey exploring yourself. Designed through a personal lens for creation to experience self. Your mind is God. Another person’s mind is God. Another experience is God talking with you and supplying you with what you tell yourself at a subconscious level.
God can be portrayed as mean. God can be judging. God can be cruel. God can be tormenting. God can be soft. God can be loving. God can be intelligent. God can be anything. Your thoughts are God. When your ego is conditioned, God is restricted. When your mind is free, your God consciousness is free to explore your world. You dictate the quality of your God’s existence. You are that powerful.
At one time you watched an Oprah Winfrey episode on the television. On this episode the hostess stated that when it comes to manifesting, most people don’t actually know what it is they want. There is truth to this because most people are unaware of the power of their subconscious mind.
Remember, the universe works with you telepathically. Telepathy is ruled by your subconscious mind. When you are unaware of what your subconscious beliefs are, you would be naturally unaware of what it is your subconscious mind is attracting for your life. Your subconscious mind prefers familiarity; even when that familiarity tends to keep you trapped inside your own hellish torment.
With that said, because God is everything and everyone, you attract a likeness based upon your current awareness level and acceptance of what you determine as truth. If you believe through your repeat programming that you are not worthy of true love, then your subconscious mind is telling creation to send you a version of itself, who agrees that you are not loveable. If you love yourself, and Creation, and can accept a person for who they truly are in that moment, then your subconscious is telling creation to send you a version of God who loves themselves and can see the love in you. God takes your subconscious mind quite literally. What you feel, you tell God you want more. God says yes every time.
If you proclaim that you are rich and attract financial gains, yet subconsciously you are simply hoping for the best, without confidence and assuredness, or you resent others for having a great deal of money, then you are telling creation that you desire to build a love hate relationship with money, which would require both struggle and reward. This creates the two steps forward, three steps back ordeal. I love to hate money means to keep money at a safe distance whilst visit every now and then.
When you know yourself well enough and can accept that everything, including you, is God, then you can build a relationship with God by way of confident statements, with an equal confident faith in the results. Since God knows you intimately, the universe then conspires to give you an experience which best reflects yourself and creation at the same time. God compliments you with another version of you, which is also God in human form, and who suits your request best.
We know you are lonely. Your frequency dips into loneliness at least once a day. What is it that your subconscious mind is telling God to create for you in this instance?”
Based upon what Clairity just explained, I imagine I am requesting more rejection and a wallflower life. At the same time, that is what my world is like at present. I feel like a wallflower watching life pass me by. Does this mean I am telling God to keep me in this state?”
“Yes Clair. Your energy is telling creation to keep you isolated. To change this, you must reaffirm your faith. When you catch yourself experiencing a sense of loneliness, talk to your God. Reaffirm to creation that your energy welcomes friendships and true authentic romance. Reaffirm your goal for being a recognized writer and speaker of spirituality. Reaffirm who you are so that your message to yourself remains consistent. Remember to treat your ego like a child. Be your own loving parent.
There are many more versions of creation that reflect your same values and virtue. Trust in this. Your ego is simply being like any child would be, which is, impatient”.
Creation is incredible isn’t it? I love that I exist. The fact that I can say I exist blows my mind. Would you agree?
Thank goodness my mind is strongly linked to my Clairity. I am not so confident that I would have climbed out of my personal living hell had Clairity not have appeared before me when my heart was shattered into pieces.
My Clairity encourages me often. With that in mind, I am being urged to write about how we compulsively focus on a desire to the point of pushing our desire away, rather than attract it closer. I suspect this will be tomorrow’s entry.
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