(Disclaimer: Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
In my mind, I picture a wooden door in a similar shape as medieval castle doors, only tinier. Rabbit size, if you will. Every time I asked a question related to understanding the reason I was attracting such difficult circumstances, Jack, my rabbit, presented me with a key inside my mind.
Jack is an imagined character inside my mind to remind me, as scary, and as often painful discoveries are, they are to be viewed from the perspective of a child first. In other words, it is important to look at yourself within the eyes of innocence, before taking on the role as an adult . I am a child understanding myself, basically. With that, Jack, just by his representation, reminds me to be courageous, adventurous, and light hearted, wherever, and whenever possible. In my mind, Jack offers me a key then prompts me to look towards a door, or doors to which he is presenting before me.
Jack was offering me a choice between two doors at this stage of my long drive back to Fredericton with Bill. I had a decision to make when I stood in front of each entrance inside my mind. Beckoning me to look at memories from a different perspective. The beautiful voice inside my mind gesturing her gentle, loving hand out, as if to say “come inside. I’ve got you”. Am I ready to truly understand my pain?, or, do I recognize I am not ready to enter just yet.
Only ask a question you are truly ready to hear the answer to. Accountability can be a painful bugger sometimes. Doing that exercise in my mind became my starting point in leveling up my wise discernment. I am grateful for my imagination of Jack. I still have him as a loving friend inside my mind. Anytime I see a rabbit externally to me I greet it with a “hiya Jack. It’s nice to see ya”. If I see Jack on a regular basis in my neighborhood, I am being informed of an impending move. Jack holds many clues for me.
Before I take you through my twelve year old, mini castle door, it’s important to me that I address an important detail.
Every single person in my life, especially those referred to in this true life adventure, are both a villain, and a victim. As am I. We all played roles to help each other in our soul’s evolution. Playing both roles of the student and the teacher for each other. My parents, my brother, my ex romantic partners, my children, my grandchildren, my past friends, my lost relatives, and predators, are all on their individualized journey, in their own mind. They are discovering themselves at their own pace. It’s the entire point of being here. They have stories. They have experiences. They have trauma as well. Some of them would most certainly involve me.
As you continue to walk with me down each path on my journey, remember, hurt people hurt people due to subconscious patterns they are unaware of. Who’s at fault really? Them for acting out in pain. Hurting me the way they did?, or, me for agreeing to believe them so that I could hurt myself? Then carry their pain and my own on my back? Resulting in me acting out from pain just like them. If I held pain towards them, I would be hurting them through my energetic retaliation. I would also be hurting myself by reenacting the emotions by looping the memory from only one perspective inside my mind. Like I said, hurt people hurt people, including soft hearted people.
If I do not take accountability for my choices, how am I to truly learn? How am I to truly evolve as a loving creation? You are glimpsing into the mind of only one character when you read my story. That character is me. To truly see the truth in all, you must jump into the mind of each character throughout this journey. Then broaden your mind even further than that. You would have to step outside of yourself, then look at it from an even greater perspective within all of creation’s perspective.
This is my truth. This is my understanding. My goal for you is to help you see for yourself what you believe is true for you so that you can better understand yourself. You are on a gentle journey into self love. Keep walking with me. It will all make sense in time. If not, well at least you’d be entertained.
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