(Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
The reconciliation process between my ego and money has been an ongoing journey since leaving Rosie in August, 2024. In fact, if you have been following along in my journey since the beginning, then you are in my present day healing with me. What I mean by that is, the revelations and connections Clairity helped me to discover has been recent. I talk to my God everyday. I hear Clairity everyday. I ask questions everyday.
“Clair, remember, life is like a chair. One leg of your chair is for your chosen family, one leg is for your passion, one leg is for your faith, and one leg of your chair is for exploration of self. You are seated upon the chair. Money and health go hand-in-hand in the physical realm. One affects the other. When one is off balance, so is the other.
It is for this reason, poverty helps to create riches. Poverty creates disharmony. Disharmony in the energy creates denser energy. Denser energy influences mindsets. Minds create dis-ease. A mind which is in chaos, stress, desperate, depressed, and believes money is only for the rich and powerful, aid in a lucrative financial flow for health supplies, government bodied institutions, and other forms of distracting support. It’s difficult to create money for yourself when you are focused on others creating it and taking advantage of the money mindset.
Those whom subconsciously reject money, send the money frequency to those who accept money freely. Those with money have this knowledge. They either know this intuitively or consciously. Some use their power for good. They assist others and give back through an authentic channel. Some allow their ego to help others believe they are not of equal value to receive. Some financially wealthy individuals use their knowledgeable power to maintain a great divide in financial efficacy.
People rejoice when you are in poverty. People rejoice when you are rich. You get to decide which journey to take. Both come with glorious challenges and triumphs. Both provide you experiences with others who you can empower and who can empower you. You can also choose people to experience disempowerment with as well. Money is a tool used to help you achieve either arena. It’s an adventure of your choosing. Trust yourself and allow money to support you. To do that, you must go deep within to reconcile and build a healthy relationship. Money is an extension of all that is after all. Money is a reflection of the God source.
Health and mental wellness would change the frequency of rejection to acceptance. This would create equal reciprocity in financial wealth once realized. Rather than the rejected flow of money continuing to flow to those who love money, money would flow to all equally. All would be resonating within a gratitude state of love.
Money recognizes the love frequency of the individual’s energy. This includes someone who may be experiencing an impoverished reality. Therefore, an impoverished person who loves themselves and expresses authentic love to the universe, can receive inspirational knowledge to allow the flow of money to enter their reality. You Clair are such a being.
It is important to recognize, money flows in the frequency of love. It is for this reason, ill intended individuals, and entities, can be rich in the earthly sense because they can maintain the frequency of love when they psychically link to money. When they can maintain this frequency, they maintain and grow riches through the law of attraction.
A person doesn’t have to love themselves to be rich. They do have to love money. In order for a person to be wealthy in mind, they have to love themselves.
A person’s ego may cause havoc in the way they utilize their money and status. They may have a difficult time with self love. They may be being controlled by another source. Believing their life would crumble if they didn’t perform in some way. Nonetheless, money stays and grows where it is loved.
Most people who have financial struggles subconsciously resent money without realizing it. Just like you did. They express their interest in receiving. Yet, their frequency vibrates in desperation, envy, jealousy, hopelessness, or resentment more often than not. This love, hate mindset, and vibration, results in blockages and a denser frequency in your reality. When you are in this slower vibrating frequency, you inadvertently reject the flow of currency. They are disharmonized.
With that, your ego conditioning over your journey kept you in a state of rejection. This affected your health. By keeping money away from you subconsciously, you also rejected medical benefits. This too is a form of income. If you were physically healthy, then you would be financially supported as well.
Your mind became so destitute, that you were unable to keep up with your gym membership. You began to lose muscle tone and weight. You accepted that Rosie was accepting of the deterioration of your light. You accepted the fact that he chose not to invest in you. You were okay with him buying expensive things and not thinking to invest in the aid of your health. This was your comfort zone. Your energy then vibrated in such a way that you were unable to ingest food. I’m certain you can see the spiral. Your love for money and your love for your health go hand-in-hand. They are a balanced scale in frequency. You are a psychophysical being.
Your mind and health began to dim. When you are seated upon your chair of life, both your health, and the frequency of money, seep down the chair and into each one of your supporting legs. Energy is everlasting and in constant motion. When you reject energy, energy still has somewhere to go. In this instance, depressed energy flowed down into your legs which created cracks and blockages in your health, wealth, relationships, and over all well being”, Clairity explained.
I have thought long and hard about the reasons I have deeply struggled with financial independence. Back in the day, from 2012 to 2014, I taught classes on communication. I explained many times over many seminars, words affect your mind’s perception and can create adverse effects without realizing it.
As an example; if you ask a person “why did you do that?”, as opposed to, “what made you decide to do that?, you would receive a wall of energy back. The wall would read, “defenses up”.
The word “why” ignites the teenager ego inside a person. The word why is associated with defense for your teenager ego. The layering of this internal feeling of annoyance or defense comes from when you are questioned this way in your lifetime.
First, when you were knee high to a budgie, you ask why a lot. Then when you became a teenager, you cringed when someone of perceived authority asked you why. You linked the word “why” with having to explain yourself. A frequency of either doubt, or, insult, or both, kicks in. The adult version of you today, when not aware, reacts in defensive mode. Most people do.
In addition, if the word ‘try’ doesn’t ignite self defensiveness, there is a high risk of the word aiding in a victim mindset. It is extremely difficult to find solutions when there is so much to blame.
I can also recognize common sayings which are disempowering, within my culture anyway. Expressions such as, “money doesn’t grow on trees. You’ve gotta work for your money. Bloody hell Clair, do you think we are made of money?”.
These messages added layers upon layers of excuses as to the reason I was not worthy of money. These expressions, alongside my fear of shaken morality, kept excuses rolling in. My fear of money thrived with the help of those types of messages. I bet you have expressions similar to these in your reality too? They are common and all reinforce an impoverished mindset.
“Wealth is a mindset. Riches are earthly pleasures. You are made of love. When you recognize this love within you, you experience the frequency of health, wealth, and financial abundance in some fashion. They all resonate naturally and harmoniously together in a perfect symphony. Energy flows constantly. You are the conductor of this energy” ~Clairity
When I was thinking about my relationship with money, Clairity reminded me of a dream I had. Clairity reminded me by giving me a huge flashback to a dream where I was walking inside what looked to be a pyramid. I was seated in bed, and asked Clairity “What’s the reason I am still penniless?”, when a vision smacked me square between the eyes. This dream seemed so real to me. I felt like I was reliving something. The moment Clairity reminded me, I was back in time in my mind.
In this dream I was wearing a garment that was form fitted on my upper torso and free flowing at my feet. I was being escorted down what looked like a tunnel of sorts. There weren’t stairs per say. It was more of a gradual decline, or incline, depending on the direction you would be facing. There were lit torches that lined either side of the walls. Approximately six to ten feet apart from one another leading us down the incline. I was being escorted by two males in front of me and two males behind me. They were dressed in different attire than myself. As we descended, in my mind, I knew I was being escorted to my final resting place. I was an honor sacrifice for someone.
At some point of my descent, I came to an opening which led to a large square room. Inside this room were riches and, wall chains. As well as some sort of flat stone table surface with metal attachments I believe? I only scanned the space with my eyes for a moment. I then walked inside. After I was inside this enormous space, I didn’t see my escorts. What I could see was sand coming down the walls and into the space. I stayed put. I knew I was being buried alive because I was someone’s favorite concubine. I knew without knowing. After I saw the sand come down the walls, I woke up. This dream disturbed me until recently when Clairity helped me understand.
“Clair, you experienced memories from a past life. You were a concubine back then. You were a concubine in this life. You were sacrificed for someone else’s status. You lived at the sacrifice of yourself for others in this lifetime. Sand came down the walls in that lifetime. Blood came down the walls in this lifetime. You lived a luxurious life. It was a perceived honor to be laid to rest with your person during that time. Your inner reality secretly disagreed. This inner knowledge is what you brought with you in this lifetime.
In addition, your memories then traveled with you into your life as a soldier. You were a concubine first. When you were the soldier you played the opposite role. You then became the one with concubines. You didn’t have a high regard for females in the country you were fighting against. You also experienced the sacrifice of your comrades. You then sacrificed yourself due to the burden of witnessing your comrades deaths. Both these fragmented memories were triggered in this lifetime. You carried your perception of money, sacrifice, infidelity, love, and acceptance for simply being you into each of your lifetimes. When you entered into this lifetime, you had coding which tied into these previous lives.
You moved from one extreme perception to the polar opposite perception. They were interwoven into the fabric of time which kept you misaligned. Remember the spider web metaphor. You held an ethereal cord with those past versions of you. You have been fighting with these traumas ever since.
Now that you are aware, and you have fully accepted your ego stages by integrating the energy back into yourself, you must complete this process and integrate your Egyptian timeline as well. Repeat the meditative process of recognition, acceptance through love and understanding, and then a final embrace to pull your energy back into alignment with all of you. Doing so assists in your confidence in who you are”.
Wow! What a revelation that was. It all makes sense. Now I accept the reasons for my choices in parents, friendships, lovers, careers, health deterioration, my lack in financial prowess, and loneliness. It’s connected. With that, I did reintegrate my energy by visualizing the part of me who was sacrificed for status. I associated money with that lifetime at a subconscious level. Who knew!? Clairity knew.
“Clair, now that you have a better understanding into the reasons you rejected money through an abundance of creative ways, what is your position today?”, Clairity asked.
I am made with the love frequency. I know myself and have the awareness to check in with all the stages of my ego. Before, during, and after an experience. I recognize money may help to create a sense of imbalance at times. I also recognize I am guided, loved, and supported, always by the divine. With that, I love money and respect its power. I choose to use this abundance of currency to invest in my health, wealth, and overall well-being, so that I may invest the same energy into the world around me. I welcome money in morally correct ways.
“Excellent Clair. Now keep writing. Trust us. Let the messages flow. Next we shall discuss your trepidation for medical support. This must be reviewed before you can allow others to assist you in this area of your life. Your mind created your reality. You must remember this. Including with your health. You are a psychophysical being. It is time to make the connections”.
I agree
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