(Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
During the time Tranquil Spirit was opened I offered an intuitive service. I wouldn’t make promises nor guarantees. What I did do was trust the responses I received in my mind to questions I had of my clients. The beautiful bouquet woman Clairity was referring to came to me for this particular service.
My appointment with Katrina was before the Holocaust man incident in 2008. If my memory serves me correctly, this beautiful soul of a woman came to me in spring, 2007.
“Okay Katrina, thank you for trusting me with your private life.”
I acknowledged every client’s vulnerability and trust they had in me. I then explained what they could expect.
“I do not use any divination tools. What I do is I call upon my spirit team for assistance. I then tap into your energy. I then inquire about you by asking specific questions inside my mind. The responses I receive may come in a vision. One vision may be me, watching a memory play out in my mind, only it’s not my memory. It’s like I am there on the day observing from a distance. I then receive words in my mind, along with emotions to connect the entire message.
The other way I receive a vision is in the form of a still picture. There is no movement. This vision can be literal. You may possess the picture I would be describing. It may also be symbolic. There is more than one way to look at something. If it is symbolic, I trust my experience in deciphering the symbols. Either way, I will tell you what I am receiving to confirm what I am receiving makes sense to you.
Should someone in spirit decide to make their presence known, I will shift my focus to them. Their presence takes precedence over predictions. Do you have any questions?”
Katrina was comfortable proceeding. With Katrina’s acceptance, I closed my eyes and began my questioning.
Blank. I received blank information. My vision was of a blacked out screen. I asked to feel something, hear something, see something, anything for her. The vision remained a blacked out screen. I asked her loved ones in spirit to make their presence known. I received crickets.
“I am so sorry Katrina. I am receiving nothing. I only see a blank image in my head. It seems I am unable to read for you today. I am not willing to make something up. I call it as I see it. There is no charge for this service. My apologies”.
Katrina was understanding after I declined her offer to give me a little insight into her circumstances.
Katrina left Tranquil Spirit disappointed. I left the session feeling awful and confused. I couldn’t understand why I could read some people and not others. If everyone is made of energy, and I can read energy, then I, by all rights, would be able to read anyone, right? Oh, there are many layers to existence and universal order and law to keep creation in a balanced state. I wasn’t quite aware of this realization back then.
Instead, I questioned my abilities. Thoughts of being a charlatan crept into my mind. I am someone who prefers to know what she is doing before doing it. My ego wasn’t comfortable with being caught with her pants down, sort of speech. My ego required consistency and learned awareness. I still do. The difference today is, I respect that there are things happening within and outside of my awareness that is outside of my control. Trust in what I already know, as well as trust in recognizing what I don’t know, is what is required to help maintain a harmonious existence.
With that said, back in 2007, I was still getting my feet wet. I was figuring things out as I went. I am still learning as I go to this day. Anyway, I doubted myself immensely. I feared playing with people’s minds. I feared losing sight of the possibility that I was an excellent guesser and not connected to a divine source.
A bigger part of me knew that I was definitely doing something. I was uncertain what it was I was actually doing. My doubts subsided significantly the day Katrina came back inside my shop, about three weeks later, carrying a beautiful bouquet of green and white flowers.
“Hi Clair. It’s nice to see you again. I am just stopping by to say thank you to you and give you these”.
Katrina presented me with the bouquet of flowers. I was pleasantly confused.
“For me? I didn’t do anything. I was unable to help you. I don’t understand”.
Katrina shed some light onto her situation. “I know the reason you were unable to read me dear. I had a doctor appointment scheduled for right after our session. A lump was discovered in my breast. I am now dealing with breast cancer. If you were to know that on the day of our session, how would that have helped either of us? You would have put me in an anxious state. The stress would not have helped my situation. You would have probably been uncomfortable with telling me as well. I love that you saw nothing. There was no interference. What I am thanking you for is your complete honesty. You are legitimate at what you do. I appreciate you”.
I felt honored. “Oh wow. I am sorry to hear of your struggle. I am also so grateful you helped me understand. Thank you so much”.
Katrina then responded with, “don’t feel sorry. Believe in me instead”. What an incredible human being.
“Clair, Katrina was an earth angel. You contracted this arrangement with her for the purpose of recognizing your integrity. You clearly showed who you were as a person. The experience was effective. In addition, it is important to recognize that everyone has free will within universal laws. There are some areas which are none of your business. They are none of your business because if you made it your business, you would be interfering with her soul contract and your own. When you are in a position when you may inadvertently disrupt another’s soul contract, you will be blocked. Remember the entity with the spirit board. It is important to know your place. Trust the divine process”, Clairity explained. Fair enough, understood.
Clairity then went on to ask, “can you see your moral compass? Can you also see how your strong sense of right and wrong was born from your fear of condemnation? From your fear of being born evil? This fear caused you to overcompensate by being compulsively aware of your morals and integrity. I say compulsively because you would become defensive if anyone were to ever question this about you.
Fear is a valuable asset once you recognize the gift which comes from it. The gift you received was built into your character. Do you still doubt the way you were created? Do you doubt you are loved and guided? Can you recognize that not knowing something and other people’s perceived values and beliefs are not true reflections of your nature?”
Yes. I can recognize both darkness and light. I respect both sides. I trust my discernment. I trust in the divine. I trust in what I receive and I trust the way I deliver what I know. Clairity, I trust you.
“It’s fabulous that you are reinforcing your relationship with us. Continue doing so. Do you also recognize that another person’s perception of what you are doing is for their learning, not necessarily yours?”
I love that Clairity reminds me to let people think for themselves.
“You were anxious when trusting us the day you helped Caroline locate her mother’s grave site. Let’s review the way you received your information that day. It is important to highlight the collective efforts in communication. Doing so can help to ease you into seeing the way spirit communicates with you”, Clairity encouraged.
It was November, 2008. The ground was frozen. The sky was grey. There were no fires in sight. The frozen ground beneath my feet became so hot I thought I walked on top of a blazing campfire. It was so hot in fact that I sat down on the ground and soaked in the heat. It is quite cold in November in Canada. The heat coming from the ground alleviated the cramp in my toes. It was a beautiful thing indeed.
Helping to find Caroline’s mother was an experience I continue to cherish to this day. I am also incredibly grateful for Clairity’s loving guidance in helping me understand what exactly had occurred on that day.
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