(Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
I earned my master’s degree in metaphysics in June, 2008. I remember writing my thesis in Tranquil Spirit’s shop for days on end. If I wasn’t working on my thesis, I was serving a customer or conducting a private session with a client, or teaching a self-development class, or at a wellness fair to promote Tranquil Spirit. If I wasn’t working, nor building on my thesis, I was with my family. I was a busy lady back then.
The reason I bring up my thesis is because I am uncertain exactly when I met the Holocaust man. I do remember it was after I had completed and submitted my master’s thesis. With that, it was sometime during the summer months of 2008. I may have even been given my degree by this point. I am fairly certain my degree stroked my ego’s need to prove I was intelligent either way.
A woman reached out to me from Saint Andrews, New Brunswick. She had heard about me through her community. This woman was also involved in natural healing through spirituality in some capacity. She reached out to me because she had a client whom she felt needed my assistance. He seemed to be suffering from mental distress. She felt I may be able to assist by psychically picking up on oppressive energy which may be attached to him.
“As you can imagine, this is a sensitive matter. He is desperate for answers at this point. We can certainly pay for your services. We can meet at the local motel so that he can feel confident in his anonymity”, the lady explained.
I was extremely reluctant. “I’m not sure how much I can truly help. All I would be able to do is identify past and current influences, if any? It sounds like he may require other services”, I explained.
“Oh yes, of course. He is being assisted in other ways. What we are looking to do is discover information we may be unaware of. Would you help us please?”.
I thought about it for a moment. I felt the unease within me. I also felt my empathetic compassion take over. “I can see what I can do. I make no promises. When would you like to do this?”, I asked.
“As soon as possible. Would you be available Tuesday afternoon, say two o’clock?”, she responded.
“Let’s make it for one o’clock instead. I must be back at the center before my girls finish school. This would allow enough time”, I countered.
“Sounds good, one it is then. See you Tuesday. We will meet you at the ABC motel on the northside of Fredericton”.
“Okay, sounds good. See you then”. With that, I hung up the phone and instantly thought, “what did I just commit myself to?”.
The feeling which came over me was similar to that of when I met the Necklace man. I didn’t connect it at the time. What I did do was recognize the feeling, then I did my best to disregard it. I let my ego take over. My ego didn’t want to accept that I was in over my head. My inner child was still interested in proving herself.
Hindsight, it’s a beautiful thing. Today, I can identify the vibration within an experience I am having. Today I honor it before anything else. I can do that because I have identified areas of improvement within myself. I know me. In addition, I recognize that I am not required to know everything. I can admit when I am in over my head. I can accept when I have much to learn. There is responsibility and accountability in that. Today I would address this situation differently. Today I would honor my boundaries and awareness by simply stating, “it would be wise to acquire someone more knowledgeable in this matter. Thank you for considering me”. That’s all. It’s easy really. I prefer to stay off of a pedestal, in all areas of my life.
I didn’t have the same wisdom back then. If I were to place my qualifications into perspective, it would be, me being a grade eight student walking into a university class and expecting to know what I was about to teach at a University level. Remain humble. Lesson most definitely learned.
I experienced anxiousness over the three days leading up to this life altering interaction. I knew full well that I was in over my head. I kept on convincing myself to go through with it because I am a woman of my word. Unless there are truly unforeseen circumstances which take place, I do what I say I am going to do. I also only make promises I can keep. I’ve been that way for a long time. I raised my children on those personal principles. I honor this about myself. I observe others to see if they are of the same mind. I trust according to what I observed.
The day arrived. Both the woman, Rachel, and the gentleman, Alfred, were waiting in Rachel’s car when I pulled up beside them. We all got out of our respective vehicles and greeted each other.
“Hi Clair. It’s nice to meet you in person. This is Alfred”.
I acknowledge her client. I motioned my hand to shake his and said, “Hi Alfred. It’s a pleasure to meet you”. He looked at me, shook my hand and said “hi”. With that, we all entered the little motel room they rented.
I read both of their energies outside in the parking lot. It is easier for me to discern who’s energy is who’s outside. It is more challenging to identify multiple energies when inside a confined space. Rachel’s energy was pleasant. There were hints of ego trauma I could feel. Nothing which alerted ill intentions. Alfred’s energy was cantankerous. He was guarded, volatile, and unwelcoming. I maintained a healthy physical distance from him. I recognized he was in mental and emotional distress.
Alfred was seated on a lounge chair in the corner of the room. Rachel sat opposite him on the bed. I sat on the other bed farthest from Alfred. I was using pen to paper whilst asking questions inside my mind.
“What is something about Alfred that I do not know? What is the most important information at this time?”
Upon asking those questions I awaited a response by doodling or writing words on the paper. I then explained what I was feeling and heard within my mind, to Alfred.
“You are carrying a lot of anger and depression. Your mind gets scattered at times. You are carrying pain from childhood”. Saying this agitated Alfred.
“That’s not what I am here for”, he countered.
I acknowledged his focused purpose with “okay. Let me see what energy may be affecting you”.
I took a soothing breath, then asked to be shown information about what unseen energy may be affecting him. In my mind I heard the word “Holocaust”. Next I was given a vision. In my mind I was standing in a secret room. As I stood there I could see twin children. Approximately at the age of five. Each child was strapped to a bed contraption beside each other. Standing beside one of the twins was a man with short dark hair, a lab coat, and some sort of device in his hand. I then heard the words “scientist” and “experiments”.
I explained what I was experiencing to Alfred in the moment of experiencing them. Alfred’s reaction was to say “oh you are useless. This doesn’t help me! You can’t help me! No one can help me!”. His demeanor then shifted to pure hatred. His energy became extremely volatile. In addition to that I saw a face appear embossed on the wall above his head. The face looked male. It had a vicious glare and an expression of contempt. As soon as I saw that face I thought the words, “not so easy is it”.
Seeing that face appear was enough for me to say “I agree that I am unable to help you”. I then addressed Rachel, who was quiet the entire time.
“Thank you for reaching out to me Rachel. I’m sorry I was unable to help. This session is at no charge. I wish you both all the best in solving this”.
Rachel’s response was with kindness. Alfred interjected my bow out with “yeah right. You just wanted to scam me out of my money. You got caught cause you don’t know a damn thing.”
I sighed and said “I wish you well”, then left.
“Clair, it is excellent that you can identify the responsibility in remaining humble. When you know you are unaware, make yourself aware before making a commitment. Be comfortable in saying no. Be comfortable in admitting when you require further knowledge first. Be okay with not knowing and therefore reject when necessary. In addition, recognize when you do enter unknown territory after ignoring the signs, you risk emotional, mental, and physical disruption. You are a psychophysical being. When your mind is affected, the rest of what makes your energetic coding become affected. Everything is energy. Your mind determines the way energy interacts with you. The interaction is based upon your perception”.
Clairity then went on to ask me, “Do you recognize that you experienced quite a downward spiral after that experience?”
Yes I do, and have been quite curious about it. I have wondered if the wall face attached its energy to me after I left. I also wondered if that face was connected to the devil I had already fought in my dream state. Clairity offered some insight into my curiosity.
“The face produced was a reflection of energy your mind created. The energy was conscious energy. With that said, the way it presented itself was based on a telepathic link between yourself and it. In addition, your energy was co-creating with Alfred’s energy and Rachel’s energy. Therefore the oppressive energy that accompanied Rachel and Alfred did what you requested. It made its presence known by psychically linking your energy through Alfred and appearing on the wall. Alfred felt the energy influence him which resulted in his aggressive reaction. You were sent fear. Alfred was sent anger. You both internalized the sensation and acted accordingly in that moment.
What’s important to understand is, due to your ignorance in releasing this form of energy, you unknowingly invited darker energy to invade your mind and aura. We are collectives. Oppressed energy is also a part of a collective. The heavy energy which was affecting Alfred created awareness within yourself. This awareness then linked to the lady in a blue dress. This familiarity was all it took to create a wave of thoughts within you. You then transported this energy by carrying it. The energy then began affecting your home and business. So you see, to answer your questions, when you expose yourself to darker influences, you become susceptible to oppressive thinking. You made the phone call to spirit. The closely linked energy responded. This in turn began to affect your loved ones.
Your loved ones who held a predisposition for negativity became targets. Their mind was manipulated by the unseen force you unintentionally invited in. Doing this allowed for a group effort in co-creation. A downward spiral commenced at that stage. Now that you recognize the responsibility in your choices, what position do you hold today?”
When I know it is negative energy I shall continue to respect its power from afar. I take responsibility knowing when to say no.
“Excellent Clair. You are doing a fabulous job at understanding yourself. Do you now see how the demon was able to make its presence known to you once again through your dream state? You had the hospital dream within months of the Holocaust man experience. You, along with Bill, were carrying energy that was vibrating at a level which made it easier for the ill intended energy to affect you. Bill had his own demons to fight. Both you and Bill co-created loss, manipulation, upheaval, and physical distress with the help of the energy you and he were unable to release.
With power comes great responsibility. Do you see how impactful this is today?”
Yes. I take accountability for my choices. I am wiser today for knowing. Other experts who are knowledgeable in the ethereal realm and who have a heightened understanding of negative energy can address the issues. I shall be their student. I know what I don’t know.
Clairity then went on to say, “do you also see how you attracted this experience because you were still in fear of condemnation? Your ego conditioning of potentially being wrong about your intuition, and abilities, gave way for you to have an experience which helped you to stay in doubt. Do you recognize how the experience had given you permission to reject the idea that you do have a strong connection to all that is? You rejected spiritual enlightenment by feeding your doubts. Feeding your doubts enabled your fear of money. They worked in tandem to assist you in closing Tranquil Spirit.
Jack will be ready for you when you wish to explore and release your fear of money”.
I value Clairity’s insight. I love my mind. With that said, I found myself feeling a little low after realizing the truth in this. With that in mind, Clairity guided me to remember other beautiful encounters.
“Clair do you remember the woman who came into your center and gave you a bouquet of flowers to say thank you to you? And do you remember discovering your client’s mum’s final resting place?”
Yes, I do. They were powerful indeed.
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