(Disclaimer: Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
There have been several instances in my life when someone questioned my intentions and integrity. When Clairity advised me to reflect back on these experiences, my mind brought me to three spiritually impactful occurrences in my life. All three of these occurrences happened after my mini-dream-series with the lady in a blue dress. Two of the three experiences occurred during my time with Tranquil Spirit between 2006 and 2009.
I opened Tranquil Spirit’s doors in September of 2006. Tranquil Spirit was my spiritual sanctuary. The shop was adorned with crystals, divination tools, motivational books, natural healing support items, and other forms of peaceful memorabilia.
The store was equipped with four taupe coloured lounge chairs. There was a quaint little glass table sitting in the middle of the chairs. There were many a cup of tea and talk gatherings there. There were also three healing rooms overlooking a brook. The first room was my office. The other two rooms down the hall were for energy healing services. There was also a designated space to host classes and spiritual gatherings.
I loved Tranquil Spirit, so did my daughter, Liv. Liv shon bright when she was my little helper at Tranquil Spirit. Her shyness disappeared when she was there with me. To this day, Liv and I both have dreams of resurrecting Tranquil Spirit in some way.
Tranquil Spirit was a little peaceful escape for several people within the community. They didn’t necessarily buy anything from the store. I was okay with that. Tranquil Spirit was meant to be a safe haven for everyone. The center’s sign reflected that message with a rainbow aura silhouette of a person in a meditative pose. The silhouette sat under the words Tranquil Spirit.
After about a month of the center being opened, a woman entered my shop. I was standing behind the till when she appeared. This woman was unknown to me. Her energy on the other hand was all too familiar. She stood in the doorway, looked at me, then assertively asked “do you not believe in God? This is sacrilege!”.
My response to her was a quick “all paths lead to God”. I then smiled and wished her a pleasant day.
When I recalled that experience Clairity popped into my mind. “You responded to the woman eloquently and confidently. You did not question your intentions in that moment. What’s the reason you responded the way you did?”.
I knew my intentions with my services. I knew my character. I knew if there was a God, I am loved for who I am eternally. In other words, God knows my heart. I also instantly recognized the woman’s fear which stems from her personal beliefs. Her appearance in my reality was to see if I questioned my connection to all that is, as well as to affirm my commitment to my vision.
“Clair do you see how you saw past your doubts in your intuition when you released your fear of condemnation in that moment? You knew your intentions when the woman appeared at the entrance of your sanctuary. Knowing your intentions keeps you in a vibrational state of receiving divine guidance through your connectivity. This divine guidance flows naturally when you are fully aware of your intentions and presence. It is for this reason, you responded with affirming confidence rather than in defense. Your ego was set aside allowing your higher divine self to speak through you. You didn’t know that at the time. Do you recognize it today?”
Yes I can recognize the difference.
“Excellent. What do you remember of your second class of students in your intuitive development class?”, Clairity asked.
Oh now that was an interesting turn of events indeed. About a year into the life of Tranquil Spirit I was approached by several people asking me if I would be willing to teach them how to do what I do. When the idea first came to my attention I was hesitant. The reason I was hesitant was because I would only be willing to teach a course if I could prove the results to my students. I wasn’t certain how I was going to do that at the time.
I decided to do a dream-on-it exercise for myself to determine if developing a course was wise. (I used to ask purposeful questions before falling asleep so that I could retrieve an answer). The dream I had gave me the affirmative to proceed. With that, I wrote a program.
The course was spread out over a six evening, once a week, class, as well as, a compact version for full weekend events. Within this course were live hands-on experiments so that my students could identify with their intuitive strengths. Once the course was developed on paper, I decided to host three pilot groups at my center at no charge. The reason for no charge was because I believe in imperial data. My mind tends to follow a simple plan which is, once is an incident, twice is a coincidence, and three times is a pattern.
These pilot groups to determine a patterned result consisted of twelve volunteers per class, who met at my center one evening a week. The student Clairity was referring to was in the second pilot group before making it a public paid service.
During the evening of one of these classes, my students and I were seated around a circle on padded folding chairs. I had guided them through a meditation. Upon completion of the meditation I had each of my students share their experience. The student Clairity was referring to began her share with “I spoke with Jesus. Jesus wanted me to tell you that you are doing this for the wrong reasons. You have money on your mind. You are misleading people”.
Those words are not verbatim. They are extremely close to being. I know this because I was taken aback by her claims. I wasn’t expecting her to say what she said in the least. This student shared her perception amongst all in the classroom. All the students appeared a little stunned when listening to her claims.
“What was your response to Jill Clair?”, Clairity prodded.
My response was “I can respect your perception. There is more than one way of looking at something. I also know my heart. God knows my heart. Perhaps we can review your experience from another angle?”
I then asked the class what they may have perceived within the symbolism being presented. We discussed different possibilities. I moved the focus back onto the group by highlighting their uniquely different ways to interpret their intuitive understanding. Whilst also extending kindness to my vocal student.
“Do you see the similarities from the woman at the entrance of the center and your student?”
Yes. They were both questioning my intentions and connection to all that is.
“Yes this is true” Clairity acknowledged. “In addition, you maintained a consistent response. You allowed the influence of spirit to flow through you so that you could respond with love rather than defense. Do you see how knowing yourself intimately allows you to maintain confidence in your connection with God source? Your ego doubts dear. Your spirit knows the truth”.
My next thoughts were “I attracted those experiences to me. Does that mean that my impressionable energy was influenced by something dark?, or, are the people confronting me influenced by oppressive entities? How does that work exactly?” Clairity offered me some insight into these questions.
“To answer your question, yes, to both. Remember your experience with Grandpa Joe. Most people have divine guiding forces assisting them in this 3D experience. Some beings are void of higher frequency connectivity. Their awareness vibrates at a much slower pace. The evolution of these entities developed through free will choices over their existence. Their uniquely coded awareness chose their path through their ego states spread out over several lifetimes. In other words, they, like you, were created equal.
All beings are guided and influenced by unseen energy. This includes consciously aware energy. With that, a person can be telepathically influenced by a spirit being positively or adversely at any time.
A light being can intervene. Creating sudden messages being blurted out of you, or sudden change in your thoughts to alter your chosen direction. An ill intended being can also sway a person’s mind and equally create bursts of disturbing energy the same way. They can affect a person’s physical and emotional awareness without them being any the wiser. The more self aware you are, the less susceptible you are to oppressive thinking, and the more receptive you are to divine communication.
Clair, you attracted these individuals because all three of you resonated within the fear of condemnation. You all shared a common knowing in the potential for darker influences. You were all less self aware inside your mind at the time. This allowed doubt to be created in your frequency. Yours, and the other individuals’ doubts made room for darker influences to sneak into your mind.
No one was evil. All were tricked into thinking you were evil. You included. With that, everyone involved was being influenced by oppressive forces. The way an oppressive force is perceived is born through the mind of the perceiver. It is for this reason, dark entities can appear in different forms. Does this make sense?”.
Yes, I suppose it does.
Your energy is affected constantly. The less aware you are the more susceptible you are to outside influences. Energy transference naturally occurs within all of creation. Energy transforms into many shapes and sizes. Energy can therefore present itself in many ways. Including through different people. If you are questioning your morality, divine knowing, intended purposes, and personal perception, creation will provide you with people who will help you question it. You must question it before you can know it.
Darkness and light co-create your reality. Attracting experiences which question your spiritual moral standing requires lower frequency consciousness who are less aware and more susceptible to subconscious suggestion. This does not make them evil. It simply means they have a similar awareness within a different perceived reality. Your fear of being evil bled into your personal life as well”.
Clairity then went on to ask, “do you recall briefly dating someone who inquired with his church to determine your spiritual integrity?”.
Yes I do remember. He was a nice enough guy. Daniel lived in Saint John, New Brunswick. A little over an hour’s drive from where I lived in Fredericton, New Brunswick. I met him on the dating app I met Rosie on. I met Daniel in the summer of 2014. Almost a year after separating permanently from Bill and prior to meeting Rosie. I met Rosie in October, 2014. I think Daniel and I dated for about a month?
I remember telling Daniel, just as I did with anyone I was welcoming into my world, that I know things without people telling me. This rattled Daniel a wee bit after I had proven it to him. He decided to inquire with the Baptist religion he was honoring. On the last night I saw him, after our gym workout together, he informed me that his church felt I was either influenced by the devil, or I was a devil incarnate. My response was, “wow. Well alrighty then. This isn’t going to work. It was nice to meet you.” That was it. Our brief time together came to an end. At least he was honest. I respected that about him.
Clairity explained “these micro experiences in your life, both in business, and in pleasure, helped to create subconscious layers of doubt. It added an extra weight to your perception of who you are. Again, through Daniel, you reinforced the idea that you may have been created evil. Daniel happened to have a belief system which would agree with you. Both of you were resonating with oppressive thoughts based on conditioning rather than divine truth. This common fear is what enables darker consciousness to introduce telepathic suggestions. If you can conceive it, you can create it in your reality. This includes fighting with a demon.
There were two profoundly impactful experiences you had. One experience created a severe downward spiral in your business and personal life. The other ignited your curiosity into the astral realm. Visit those times Clair. It is time to discuss them so that light can shine upon the truth”.
I knew exactly what Clairity was referring to. The Ouija board and the Holocaust man. Scary experiences indeed.
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