(Disclaimer: Some names have been changed to protect their privacy. Some information may be disturbing for some readers. Read at your discretion. 18+)
As I mentioned in a previous entry, your life is like a four-legged chair. The chair is the support system in place for you to experience your life. The first leg of this chair represents family and social circles. The second leg represents your chosen vocation. The way you receive from the world, and the way you give back to the world. The third leg represents your divine faith and, or, your scientific understanding of all that is. This leg represents the ethereal realm and your awareness of it, in whatever form of symbolism works best for you. The fourth leg represents your inner child, inner teenager, inner adult, and inner wise being. All the energies you carry throughout the run of a day. This chair leg represents each energetic reflection of you throughout your current life journey. This leg is your health in mind, body, and spirit.
You, sitting on the chair, represent love. You are an accumulation of all your lives, awarenesses, ego states, and divine reflections. You are love. You assert your perception of love based upon the way you define yourself to be. You do this consciously and subconsciously. You are the navigator seated upon the chair. The seat and chair legs are your support during your life journey. Your natural assertion as to who you are, whilst seated upon this ethereal chair, then ripples outwardly. Creating forward momentum whilst influencing your chair’s ability to keep you supported.
The waves of energy you create based upon your self reflection of love can develop added weight upon each of the legs of the chair you would be seated upon. Depending on how well balanced you are within your own energy determines how effective the legs of your chair would be.
Heavy burdens based upon fear of the unknown creates cracks in your support system. When you have a subconscious fear, your chair begins to wobble. One or more of the other chair legs are then relied heavily upon. The other legs of your chair become either a distraction to lift the weight off of the stressed leg, or, becomes a permanent crutch to lean upon for answers and support. What are you learning when someone else is doing the work?
The heaviness you would be carrying within your awareness bleeds over into other aspects of your life, naturally. When this occurs, the masculine and feminine energy within you becomes misaligned. You feel off balance. Due to this intuitive knowing, your ego compensates by acting within whichever of the two energies is most prominent and familiar. Regardless of physical gender identification. Your physical manifestation due to this stressful imbalance can then produce physical ailments, accidents, and other less than desirable results in any area of your 3D life.
Take me as an example; I relied heavily on my feminine energy, so much so, I developed a co-dependent, people pleasing, mindset. I had to prove I was a good wife and friend. I had to prove I was a good mother for my children. I had to prove I wasn’t a burden. I had to prove that I was of value. My ego had to prove this so much that I became nurturing to a fault. Meaning, I ignored my own needs in order to fit into another person’s world. I also naively chose to see the good in people, always. With that, I made excuses for people’s poor behavior. I avoided intellectualizing the truth. I suppressed my masculine energy to properly intellectualize what had occurred in my life. The feminine energy within me forgave people before it was naturally time to do so. I also glorified people’s efforts the same way a mother would react to their child’s artwork, “Picasso!”. Well, perhaps not to that extent. I’m sure you understand what I mean.
With the help of Clairity today, I am able to maintain a balanced awareness between my masculine and feminine energy. I am also able to observe myself energetically. I am aware of what I am internalizing during the moment of an experience. I can instantly correct and reposition myself based upon what I am observing. When I am aware of an imbalance, I observe the crack in the leg I created. I then ask myself questions in order to see the crack from different angles. Then I fill the crack with golden love by creating a new perspective of the difficult experience.
I polish and maintain the beautiful Japanese art of Wabi Sabi in my mind by creating self loving boundaries. I am the guardian of my Wabi Sabi chair. I continue to polish my chair by remaining aware that there is darkness and light in all of creation. I am wise to have personal boundaries, knowing everyone is doing their best to navigate their energetic influences, and utilize them, for the purpose of self awareness, to the best of their abilities. In other words, when a person chooses to hurt me, they are unaware of what it is they are truly doing to themselves. Loving them from afar is perfectly acceptable. I choose a pain free life, thank you.
You, your chair of life, the legs attached to your chair, which support your weight, are all connected. Therefore, the love you have for yourself, alongside the self awareness you have developed within each leg, determines what you attract and experience in your life.
Now that I have a better understanding of my family and social circles leg, I can continue to embrace love in all its forms. Both close, and from afar. I also know all three of the other legs need much tending to. My vocation has received several cracks. My overall physical health has deep crevices to fill. My spiritual leg is strong. It was also carrying a deep crack called torment. My spiritual leg is what I chose to work on next.
Standing in front of the door that read, “Dancing With A Devil”, was Jack. He handed me a golden key then gestured me towards the door. It was time for me to revisit my arch nemesis, the “lady in a blue dress”.
“Clair, you have held great fear when it comes to your divine birthright. You asked an important question. You asked, “what’s the reason I can hear you so clearly?”. Would you like to know the reason?”, Clairity asked.
Yes, I do.
Clairity then went on to say “do you remember sitting on the park bench with Kody, when you visualized a devil sitting beside you in the ethereal realm? Do you remember what it was you telepathically said to this energy?”
I remember that day. It was sometime in August, 2024. It was just shortly after the Imagine Dragons concert in Toronto, Canada that was held on August, 08, 2024. I knew Rosie and I were over at that time in our journey. I had accepted that my life was about to take a drastic turn.
On that summer day in August, I thought in my mind, “alright devil, you win”. No sooner did I think that, I thought, “I see you devil. Come. Sit beside me. I’m not afraid of you anymore. Let’s have a chat”.
In that moment I felt an energy beside me. In my mind’s eye, I saw a masculine formed entity with a dark face and red eyes. Similar to that of Lucifer, in the Netflix series called “Lucifer”.
I then went on to say “you have been following me for long enough. You have influenced the people around me long enough. You have kept me in fear long enough. Your words “not so easy is it?” makes clear sense to me today. I chose to ignore you so I wasn’t able to see you. I can see you clearly now.
I also respect you. Your role within the grand design of creation is required in order for me to learn and grow. I also know you hold great dominion within the 3D plain of existence. I am aware of what you are capable of, therefore, I am aware of what anyone is capable of. An unaware person can be influenced by your energy telepathically, easily. To influence me, you are going to have to get through my wise self first.
I am also aware that I must respect you in order to assert my own dark energy in a healthy manner. Your influence allows me to set and maintain healthy boundaries.
I am aware of you. I see you. I recognize your importance within all that is. I also know you have no power over me unless I give it to you. I have power over you my friend, not the other way around. I am a child of God. I see you, clearly”.
As I revisited that empowering day in my mind, Clairity went on to say, “the day you confronted your form of a devil, you gave yourself permission to hear us. The moment you chose to truly see the darkness, you also chose to see the light. One does not exist without the other. It is for this reason your energy became receptive to us. You had naturally increased your frequency the moment you had released yourself from your devil’s control. Now what I would like you to do is revisit each time you know you, or the people around you, were being influenced by this oppressive energy. We will visit each one by working our way back in time. Remember the dream you had when the devil snarled, “not so easy, is it!? at you”
I remember that dream. It’s as vivid to me today as it was during those three consecutive nights of hell. It was around my birthday in May of 2006. I had just walked away from receiving long term disability benefits through an insurance company. I had plans to open a spiritual center in Fredericton, New Brunswick. I was determined to make something of myself. My spiritual appetite was my passion. I had to follow it.
The dream night began with me walking into a dimly lit pub. That’s when I saw the devil in the blue dress for the first time. I know that’s the encounter Clairity was referring to. I had a battle on my hands. I just didn’t know it at the time.
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